Purpose

OKAY. SO....

Im currently stuck outside my house so im sweating like a pig and zxcvbnmpoiuhgf it's really really hot here.

-wipes away sweat-

Well anyways, today's post is not gonna be about what I posted on 9oct about what i will be posting today (oh, you see what i did there? lol ok i bet you're confused)

but yeah, today's post is gonna be kinda short but i just wanna tell you guys(and girls) about my main purpose of creating this blog. 

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Okay, so other than being bored and wanting to share my life with (idk who reads this, fill in your name here), I also hope that through this blog, you all can actually see and know the greatness of God.

Regardless of whatever religion you are, don't worry, plz read on because I'm not here to 'promote' my God kind of thing here.

I'm just posting this to also express how grateful I actually am towards God, be it He blessed me with my friends, family or even the littlest things, I want to share my Joy with you all.

Rather than tasting and testifying the goodness of God alone, I want to share it with you all too ;)

People say, good things are meant to be shared.

so tada i wanna share my joy and happiness with you all too.

but obviously, life isn't always smooth sailing too so there will/may be some posts whereby i will just pen(type) down my thoughts on my posts but that's also part of sharing my life too isn't it. :-) 

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And yeah, I also sincerely hope that my posts has encouraged/made you happy and if I did, im really happy.

lol you people cant see the joy im having just by what i type but hey im really sincere about it. 

so yeah, 

all above all, this blog is mainly just to share my life and to glorify God's name and as well as showing and testifying to you guys how awesome and great and good and wonderful and etc God actually is. 

THANKS FOR READING

NP CAMP ; Next-Gen Svc

HIHI!

brrrrr it's raining right now shiok weather to sleep in ヽ(*・ω・)ﾉ

As promised (okay maybe i didnt promise), I'll be blogging about NP camp and Next-Gen Svc in this post!

-bows- applause pls ok im kidding

This is what crazy things I'll type especially it's like 1:44am in the morning now (Prolly 2/2+ by the time i publish this post but ohwell)

so... where should I start. There's just so many things that God has blessed me greatly with that i really dk where to start. 

Okay, let me start with Next-Gen Svc first then.

Initially, I thought that this service would just be like any other service that I served in, but God proved me wrong.

This time, it felt different.

God touched me in a way I never expected Him to and yeah I was scolded by God for thinking that serving is just a routine/same kind of thing every time.

I'm not sure how to put my feelings into words but.....

This was one of the services that God told me "You have to depend on me to serve My people. Let me minister to you first before you even think of ministering to other people out there" 

When God told me this, i went like "woahhhwowhaowhoaoh ok....."

But yeah, this struck me so hard that all that at that moment, i just thought, I need to give my best to God. 

Even though there were hiccups along the way during service and our skills may not be up to the standard of how it would usually be during other services, but God still moved, God is still sovereign, God remains the same even if earthly things change. 

"God I pray that you'll grow the Next-Gen people, grow us to become more and more like you Jesus. 

Let us not focus on how good our skills should be, but let us focus on how we should set our heart right before You in order to serve You and Your people. 

Skills may be important, but our hearts towards You are much more important. Help us to become young people that you want us to be, that as we grow older physically and spiritually in the future, we may influence the generation after us to love You even greater, serve You even harder and to praise and worship You with all of their hearts. Thank You Jesus. Amen."

Oh by the way what's a post without pictures man so HAHAHAH here it is:

MOVING ON......

NP CAMP

LOL WOW THIS. I DONT EVEN KNOW MAN. 

GOD IS JUST SO GOOOOOOOOOOOD.

So firstly, I went to camp with a heart that wasn't really prepared and i just didn't know what to expect of this camp, but God proved me wrong as He touched my heart during this 3 days 2 nights camp (even though i wasn't there on the second day). One of my camp objectives was to submit all that i have in my hands to God, for example, my cca, studies, ministry, etc. Initially, i felt very burdened and weighed down by all these commitments i have, but during pnw on the first night, i was so touched by the holy spirit that i couldn't help but cry, and at that moment, i felt the weight being lifted off my chest and I'm really really thankful to God for that.

Secondly, God actually gave me a vision during day 3's pnw. It's a picture of 2 different hearts. One: A heart that has a really small fire within. Two: A heart that has a really big fire within. But then, water came to wash and extinguish the fire in both of the hearts. And guess what happens next? You might be thinking that the fire in the first heart got extinguished first right? well, not exactly.The first heart ended up having an overwhelming fire that the heart cannot contain, while the second heart had it's fire extinguished.The water represents our problems and challenges that we're currently facing.And in the first heart, despite having it's small fire "attacked" by the water, the fire didnt extinguish but became a bigger fire. Instead of stumbling and falling because of our reliance on our own strength and doing things in our own way, putting problems > God, we ought to look to God, ought to seek His face and because of His grace and love for us, He will definitely bring us through. God wants the best for us, and we may be at our worst state now, but hey, God has great plans for you ahead.~ Set a fire down in my soul, that I can't contain and I can't control.
Lastly, God gave me this word that I believe He wants to speak to us about. The word is: REVIVAL.And by this word, it means both: Revival in the SPIRIT and revival in HARVEST.let's lead a spirit empowered life and avail our hearts for God to move through and in us, using us as vessels of Christ, making an impact not just in our own hearts but all around our individual schools, courses, workplace, etc. 

Those were what I actually shared on HOPE NP'S wall. and apart from that, I wanna thank God for using me during this camp. Thank you God for bringing the OPENING team through the performance.

Even though we were so so unprepared and only managed to practice together on the day itself, BUT BAM, God you brought us through and the performance came out unexpectedly well. Thank you God. :')

And next, thank you God for giving me this heart of worship, even though I was support-singing, it wasn't about just singing the notes and lyrics right but God, you moved in my heart and I was truly touched by your presence.

To all of you who are serving out there, always remember to humble your hearts down before God because at the end of the day, God is indeed bigger and stronger and greater than all else. Your skills may be the #1 Top standard, but without setting your heart right, it can only bring you this far. But if you choose to humble yourself down and devote your ALL to God, and by all, i mean ALL to God, God will bring you THIS FARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR (and further than this) 

God, I pray for NP as well that God, there'll be a revival in not just quantity, but also in quality. Let us set our hearts right first before wanting to grow our LG. God use us as vessels to go out there to bless people, spreading your gospel courageously because God i know that you'll never forsake us and if we choose to honor you, You will honor us as well. Thank You God. 

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There's always something to be thankful about. :')

HELLO EVERYBODY.

I finally got my lazy ass out of bed and decided to write this blogpost since i've been procrastinating it for a long time. Okay not very long only about a few days BUT STILL...

HERE IT IS.

This is gonna be an update of a series of things that has happened in the past few days/weeks and i dont know why but i just cant wait to share it with you guys(even though there wont be people reading this, its ok)

First:

POLYDINS LEADERSHIP CAMP

I cant put into words how fruitful this camp actually was but im still gonna try. Lemme tell you this, GOD MOVED BIG TIME DURING THIS CAMP. I've received so so much from God that I'm just awed and amazed and shocked and happy and grateful and etc etc etc. 

Well to be honest, I went to camp with an attitude of  "I do not know what to expect", "How different would this camp be from others? ", " ah awkward awkward and awkward" . Yes, if you didn't know, I'm a socially awkward person (especially to those that I'm not close with/ those that I dont even know)

So okay, carrying those thoughts and feelings, I went for camp.

AND TO MY SURPRISE,

Even during heart preparation, I've already received so much from God.
I was so so awed by the Holy Spirit and truly, God's presence was so overwhelming.
And God gave me this two words: First Love.
Many at times, we serve and serve, but who exactly are we serving for? Why exactly are we serving?

Heart Check: Am I still doing this for my one true First Love, which is Jesus Christ? 

Serving is not just about making sure that our skills are sharpened are zai and all but hey, serving is more than just about it's structure, it's going OUT THERE to meet people's needs.

And on a side note, I'm just so amazed by the spirit of the leaders present at the camp as well.
The spirit of wanting to have spirit impartation into the younger and soon-to-be leaders really amazed me.
Instead of ending the night early and to have more time to sleep, my awesome games team decided to have a time of sharing and Q&A session regarding leadership. And truly, it was so fruitful as everyone was giving their attention and wanting to really learn something to apply it in their leadership journey. wow. :')

GAMES TEAM. TEAM BLUUUUUUUE

Awesome bunch of leaders. May God continue to anoint them and to grow from glory to glory for God. :')

SECONDLY:
MY BIRTHDAY

Words can't express how thankful I am to everyone who wished me and even people who made the effort to surprise me just to celebrate my birthday. omg even when i'm typing this I cant help but smile :-)

 Firstly, my dearest bestest Acappella peeps planned and surprised me on 30thSeptember. omg i was so touched that i teared but hey i didnt cry ok. Big girls dont cry(but i still do LOL)
I receive a huge-ass soft-toy dog on that day and LOL i had a hard time trying to carry it home without being judged HAHAHAH
still thankful though.

Next, this beautiful girl on the right you see on the top ^, she wanted to surprise me and my home but unfortunately i was out. Despite knowing that I'm outside, she still walked and made her way to my home after work just to pass me a slice of cake and wanting to wish me happy birthday. :') how sweet can she get. 

Not just a fun friend to be with, but also one of my spiritual support that I'm thankful to God for. What would I do without you? I love you berber muacks x. i would write an whole essay for you if I could but hey you know my love for you right. so THANK YOU again.

Okay, the jar you see on the above ^, it contains 100 cranes that one of TP friends made for me! I wonder how long that took but I'm sincerely touched by it. The effort he used to make this I wouldn't understand it but i'm still thankful! 

My dear Ginger had dinner with me on my birthday itself at Hot Tomato. hahaha awkward photo taken but LOL it's ok. Love spending time talking to you about life and getting to know you more! Thank you :-)

-TO BE CONTINUED-

Next post: NP camp and Next-gen service.